Wow....

I am not the author of this. I do not claim it to be mine, I have no idea who wrote this. But wow...

I cry tears of emerald silence
I shed glass through the windows to my soul
I dream about blood, about violence
About faces in miserable shades of coal

I dare not show you my darkness
As I know you would gape in disbelief
I dare not reveal that I’m contrasted
Against your sunken sighs of relief

I cannot show you the shades of my heart
I cannot explain to you my life
How I have the ability to make you laugh
To hide my pain contained in strife

But I love that you will never know me
Or enter the places in my mind
That your conscience will not allow you to see
That to which you have always been blind

Nature Ballad

It was a mystic and beautiful scene,
Trees seemed to dance upon sight.
The breeze was better than that of the sea,
Everything indeed seemed right.

The clouds above gave quite a mist,
A lively forest did thrive,
A place obviously untouched by man,
Reap the benefits one may strive.

But benefits may be fueled by avarice,
Destroying nature, in hopes of wealth
Defenseless life runs as woodland clears
The beautiful grove lost its health.

Machinery begins its work; digging, disposing
But Mother senses their infiltration.
The Earth pleads with her to help it,
And she exercises her frustration.

Clouds begin to form, but workers notice not
Sun fades, rain begins to pour.
It picks up faster and faster
Huge puddles collect on the floor.

Lightning begins to strike, workers fear
Too muddy and wet to work
What could they possibly do now?
The leader jeers with an evil smirk.

Without regret, rain continued to fall
Flooding became unbearable, and few left
The lightning struck the building where the leader dwells,
Punishing him for his great theft.

Trapped in flames all around,
He kneels down in an attempt to pray.
“I notice my error, spare my life and I shall protect all wildlife.”
Never again shall he and nature part way.

He respected nature, and began to study it,
The knowledge he gained surpassed wealth,
He gathered people with similar vision,
With recovery plans, as brilliant as those of stealth.

He acted, he spread, he protected,
Preaching to others to save the wildlife
To save anything resourceful,
Or lose our lives in pain and strife.


This was done under 2 hours.
You are the judge. Say what you like.
I don't even like it.

20 Thousand Tweets

Hello my loved ones. If you are reading this, then you obviously clicked on my link. I have reached 20 thousand tweets, and I give credit to those that actually read and listen to what I have to say. I couldn't have done it without you. Sure this isn't a great achievement.. it kinda makes me seem like I talk/tweet too much.. but I like to think of it as... a huge chat. I have communicated with all of you, and this proves it. I love you all, and I want to add your names here to show that you are in my thoughts and twitter stream. :)

*BTW SCROLL DOWN ALL THE WAY TO THE BOTTOM*

I am going to begin with my most @replied.
@the_nikster
@xfftl8myheartx
@Nysie5
@TwiztidKris (TerminaterxTwat)
@MightBeMarissa
@Shondoit
@DJTLaC (You have more @replies in my other account. >_> )
@LaceyJacqueline
@deadlisyn
@mrbaseball22
@rennmonster
@AyeJayJay

Now for the rest of you, even though you are not on the above list, doesn't mean I don't love you.. it just means we can communicate A LOT MORE. Lol <3
@Vivi1790
@alyssamarjorie
@GleekBrad
@sexybackstabber
@NeoKis
@Spoinkerz
@LittleBroExpr
@frankie997
@nymetsfan4evr
@MacyFailMoar
@FletcherAmazes
@kneeahh
@StonedSharpie
@Caseem
@SkaterTrainer
@OddLogik
@NightHawk016
@brieasaurus
@pitz182
@nicksa7x
@redchinese19
@Brendyn
@ItsMrQ
@ilove_shoes
@Osita5673
@PaulThaAsian
@willierko
@RickyThrills
@RachelOaktree
@forman_
@sammah
@akakatydid
@DDRFanatic682
@TheSaraBelle


Yay! You made it on the list. Now, I am 100% sure I missed some people.. and if you want to be listed, you can let me know.

Click this link to tweet "I am apart of @JaviTsunami's 20K dedication tweet! Are YOU? http://bit.ly/aUaQvR"

Lover's Anguish

Today I look upon the shrouded sky,
And I wonder why this had to happen.
I never got a chance to say goodbye,
Her lifeless image can only sadden.
Never wanted her to feel forsaken,
My allegiance to our nation was great.
Overseas I was when she was taken,
And thus my life was void of my soul mate.
How can I carry such horrible weight?
My life has transformed into much distress,
This harsh pain I feel, nothing can sedate.
That is when her memory I caress.
I long to be with you again my love,
When I join you in the kingdom above.

Sonnet 30

I must memorize the following sonnet by tomorrow. January 22nd.


My love is like to ice, and I to fire;
How comes it then that this her cold so great
Is not dissolved through my so hot desire,
But harder grows the more I her entreat?
Or how comes it that my exceeding heat
Is not delayed by her heart-frozen cold:
But that I burn much more in boiling sweat,
And feel my flames augmented manifold?
What more miraculous thing may be told
That fire which all things melt, should harden ice:
And ice which is congealed with senseless cold,
Should kindle fire by wonderful device.
Such is the pow'r of love in gentle mind,
That it can alter all the course of kind.

-Edmund Spenser

A Passionate Carpenter To His Love

I offer you my profession,
in order to show you my expression.
I can build you a warm home,
one with a miraculous dome.

If in this you feel security,
may it be love, in it's purity.
Let's embark on this new connection,
so I can show you my greatest affection.

If you desire to ride a carriage,
then I shall build, if you give me marriage.
If heaven decree it from above,
then in fact I have found true love.

-Javier Eduardo (30 minute poem)

Merry Christmas?

I seriously dread the holidays.. I really wish people can share happiness with me, but usually it seems that is too much to ask. I was having an extremely awesome day yesterday, it was snowing, it was going to be a white Christmas, and even though I get no gifts, I didn't care, as long as we did something that was memorable. We could have played in the snow, and THAT could have been memorable enough to me. But no. NO. I never get what I want, I didn't ask for something that cost money. I just wanted your time. This is just incredibly sad. I refuse to make a snowman alone. So now I am sitting here blogging about how this ruined my mood. So, I guess I will watch the snow melt?... cause it's Texas.. that shit will be gone in a few hours... You just couldn't even give me an hour? NOT EVEN ONE. So yeah. Merry Christmas. -_-