Sad Day at the Shore

The dreary waves upon this sandy beach,

Reminds me of a time I used to care.

Feeling like you are just a human leach,

Leaves my soul very empty, and bare.

The windy breeze collides on my sad face,

Gentle as it may, I’m always let down.

Though I feel safe, cuddled in your embrace,

There’s that possibility I may drown.

The water eats away the grains of sand,

Matching the crude erosion of my heart,

Rescue me; just have to lend me your hand.

Don’t let this frightful storm tear us apart.

            My emotions are waves, just like the sea

            Play it safe, or unleash a tsunami.

---Javier Pelayo

Thirst of the Damned

Tonight I see the stars so brightly shine,
Though I hide in the dark shadows below.
Can only catch my eyes for they do glow.
Before I find my prey, I thirst to dine,
Drain someone of blood, and tear out their spine.
I speak of the death of Marilyn Monroe.
Tasted like fine wine beneath the chateau,
Never fed on anyone more divine.
Have no regrets of my mystical crime,
Just lust for nectar that keeps me alive.
With no shame it gets easier in time,
Killing others allows me to survive.
Rehydrate so I can stay in my prime,
As always, I find, I remain to thrive.

Petrarchan Sonnet.

--Javier Pelayo

The End

The rain falls steady,
The sky continues to cry.
I've had enough already
And ponder ways to die.

End every pain,
Have no more tears.
Strike at the vein,
Say goodbye to my fears.

One final breath
And my mission's complete.
Another human death,
It all ends so sweet.

LGC

When I look into your eyes,
I imagine all the things you wish to say.
Every night, wishing there weren't any goodbyes,
Holding tight to get to the next day.

Each time you blow me a kiss,
I look away, even though I smile.
Didn't think I could feel like this,
With you in such a short while.

You are special, always on my mind,
And I know you feel the same.
When you kiss me so gentle, so kind,
Nothing could extinguish this flame.

The distance won't keep us apart,
You are worth every mile.
With every beat of my heart,
It tells me you are very worthwhile.

Internalize

What do I do?
Can't seem to decide,
It hurts to know that
I feel so empty inside.

Trauma alters the mind
I wish to heal myself
and gather info for me to remind,
That I'm human, and alive.

I sit still and yet feel anxious,
there must be a solution
to the troubles I'm dealing with,
Can I fully feel the retribution?

I want the old me back,
Me, right now, isn't the same,
Don't know how to pick up the slack
while dealing with internal pain.

Darkness

I've seen you once before,
consuming all, even a pure heart.
We can only hope to restore,
if only one can ignite a spark.

I've traveled through you before,
left me cold, apathetic and alone.
Reality favors you, so we go once more.
I become nothing, and again unknown.

I've escaped you before,
you're not infinite, I find a way.
I find the light, so you ignore,
though through shadows you're portrayed.

I've seen you once before,
without you we don't know light.
I truly shouldn't fear you anymore,
cause in the end, we are all right.

One Way, or The Other

Which reality can be accepted?
Should I wait and see?
Live forever, or live as the expected...
Either way, I'll always be me.

Dimensions come and go,
it leaves me only to observe.
True life, I will never know.
Maybe a gift and a curse.

Can the imagination take you for a ride?
Take you further to a different dimension,
All the while leaving your brain fried,
Dismissing all comprehension.

The phoenix will always exist in my mind.
It's up to me to push it back.
Locked away, in hopes to never remind,
Of the patterns that end in black.