Internalize

What do I do?
Can't seem to decide,
It hurts to know that
I feel so empty inside.

Trauma alters the mind
I wish to heal myself
and gather info for me to remind,
That I'm human, and alive.

I sit still and yet feel anxious,
there must be a solution
to the troubles I'm dealing with,
Can I fully feel the retribution?

I want the old me back,
Me, right now, isn't the same,
Don't know how to pick up the slack
while dealing with internal pain.